How could you let your inner chaos spill and ruin what we have created here. From fragments of ourselves cut to pieces, our nail draws and our blood smears the intimacy we once had— forever lost? We still cling to something that isn’t there hoping to find a reason and another cause and go back from the beginning and be bared, be stripped back from all the lies and pain that was brought by mistrusts and blames. Foundation built for years was demolished. Now, debris are falling on our dented shield. How could we both let it get this far? Is there anyway to salvage this love of ours?
I want to be honest. I sort of forgot that I still have a blog lol. It’s been a while since I wrote something or even thought of writing.
Let’s see… Here’s what happened since I last posted something here:
I turned 25 last August 24th. I think I can legitimately say that I’m going through a quarter life crisis lol. I’m in this phase of where I’m alright but at the same time I feel like I need to do something with my life or else I’ll get left behind. To have enough wealth is the goal right now. Money is everything forget whatever I said in here years ago lol. I know in my country living with your family in your 20’s is pretty much normal but I feel like I am not growing by being in the same environment since I was born. I feel like I am missing out on so many things by staying in my comfort zone. But living alone cost a lot, I feel like I can do it but the thought of saving a lot more by staying with my family is something that I’m conflicted with. I guess this is really the age where you’re really thinking of what you are going to do with your life. Well, that’s that with my ramblings about being 25.
I also entered the world of NFT games which is taking up a lot of my time and sleep as well. The thought of gaining wealth hit me and I thought of investing in a fun way and just have a little extra income. I thought of entering Axie Infinity since it’s the NFT game that is already established so the risk is somehow lower than other Play To Earn games out there. But a friend recommended a game called Plant Vs Undeadwhich is a project that just started 2 months ago. I researched a lot about it and I see a really huge potential for this game. And it’s cheaper than Axie. I mean I invested just around $70 and I got my return of investment in just a week with a profit of around $300 at that time. This is the first NFT game that I played, and honestly it’s quite fun to play, sometimes I forget that I invested money in it. I’m also open to other NFT games, comment down below if you have recommendations.
I just renewed this blog yesterday. One of the main reason why I’m so lazy to write lol. My domain and plan expired a month ago and I just had the will to renew it yesterday. Yes, I pay for this blog. A lot of people get surprise by that information, when you love what you’re doing it’s okay to spend a little. Now that this blog is renewed I’m having trouble coming up with ideas to write about. I guess for a few days I’ll be publishing some drafts I have left until I get fresh new ideas.
That’s all I got for now. I hope to see you again on my next post.
How are you all? Hope you’re doing good. I hope you haven’t forgot about me 🥺.
I could never go a day without listening to music. I feel so incomplete when I forget my earphones especially when going to work as I take the public bus to go to and from work, music accompanies me through it. Also, I sleep with music on as I couldn’t sleep without it which I don’t recommend since I sleep with my earphones on, I do set a timer though.
While we’re on this topic let me share with you a playlist of songs I’ve created on Spotify I named it Ignore The World as I listen to this playlist to “ignore the world” and drown out the noise of reality.
I think all of us has specific songs that we listen to every time we want to be alone and for me these are those songs. I am a lyric-centered type of listener, I focus on the lyrics more than the melody most of the time that is why most of the songs in this playlist are mellow. Listening to music is one way of focusing our mind on one thought and when you’re the kind of person whose train of thoughts doesn’t stop, music is one of the most effective way to slow that down. Also, discovering artists that perfectly explains how I feel in a song makes me feel seen and understood.
That is why I want to take this moment and appreciate what music does and it is probably one of the greatest pleasure in life that we take for granted.
Do music also uplifts your mood? Share your playlist with me. 😄
Lately, it’s been raining a lot which is my favorite type of weather. The cloudiness and gloominess of the sky gives me that calming feeling. One of the little things that’s been uplifting my mood lately is the rain. I know this is a silly little thing to be happy about but I want to take a moment and recognize the feeling I feel when it rains lol.
Every time that it rains I instantly feel at peace, if it isn’t even that weird I would gladly walk in the rain just for the hell of it, just go outside and just wander around in the rain lol. I had this fond memory of really enjoying this type of weather when I was in high school, we had this field trip in an amusement park but it was raining nonstop and other people had their umbrellas and was bummed out, they were not enjoying their day but me and my friends were having a blast even though our clothes were soaking. We didn’t mind the rain and we just enjoyed all the rides, that was a great day for us.
I don’t know what it is about the rain maybe it’s the smell and the sound of the raindrops that adds to that cozy feeling and to pair it with hot drinks, music, and a loved one? What more can you ask for right? Just the idea of lying in bed all day and feeling the cold breeze is so soothing. So, I want to appreciate the rain these past few days for giving me this kind of feeling.
This kind of silly thing is one of the things that we don’t really pay attention to, it’s not much but it gives us that comfort and peace even just for a little while.
How about you? What are your favorite silly little things that makes you happy?