The sudden thoughts of failing before even starting. The unclear image of the future. The part where everything that you do eventually crumbles down. And feeling alone through it all. These thoughts makes you lie down and curl up on the bed, trying to pull what’s inside your chest while your swollen eyes can’t tear up anymore.
Have you ever felt so fucking sad that your heart feels like it’s going to explode any moment?
How could you let your inner chaos spill and ruin what we have created here. From fragments of ourselves cut to pieces, our nail draws and our blood smears the intimacy we once had— forever lost? We still cling to something that isn’t there hoping to find a reason and another cause and go back from the beginning and be bared, be stripped back from all the lies and pain that was brought by mistrusts and blames. Foundation built for years was demolished. Now, debris are falling on our dented shield. How could we both let it get this far? Is there anyway to salvage this love of ours?
I could never go a day without listening to music. I feel so incomplete when I forget my earphones especially when going to work as I take the public bus to go to and from work, music accompanies me through it. Also, I sleep with music on as I couldn’t sleep without it which I don’t recommend since I sleep with my earphones on, I do set a timer though.
While we’re on this topic let me share with you a playlist of songs I’ve created on Spotify I named it Ignore The World as I listen to this playlist to “ignore the world” and drown out the noise of reality.
I think all of us has specific songs that we listen to every time we want to be alone and for me these are those songs. I am a lyric-centered type of listener, I focus on the lyrics more than the melody most of the time that is why most of the songs in this playlist are mellow. Listening to music is one way of focusing our mind on one thought and when you’re the kind of person whose train of thoughts doesn’t stop, music is one of the most effective way to slow that down. Also, discovering artists that perfectly explains how I feel in a song makes me feel seen and understood.
That is why I want to take this moment and appreciate what music does and it is probably one of the greatest pleasure in life that we take for granted.
Do music also uplifts your mood? Share your playlist with me. 😄
One of the things I get excited about going home from work is knowing I get to chill back and play my favorite game which is The Sims. I’ve been a fan of the game for a long time now. The Sims is probably the greatest simulation game that there is right now. I get to live a different life playing this game lol. I spent hours building houses and playing different storylines. Who says it’s a boring game when I’m a serial dater who’s a full time spy? (yep, I created my female version of James Bond).
I got into playing video games when I was very young since my brothers and sister would play all the time on their Playstation and I would wait for them to finish playing so I could play after them. I used to spent countless hours playing even when we’re told to stop and rest our eyes we would still play. Today, I’m appreciative that I still get to play and now I have my own device to play with so I don’t need to wait for anyone to finish playing lol.
They say video games is a great stress reliever well it really is. It is not just to past time anymore, it is an effective way to keep your mind off of things, an effective escape to our stressful life.
Do you play video games too? What’s your favorite game?
How about you? What are your favorite little things thatmakes you happy?