My First Job Interview (Embarrassing)

I was updating my resume and browsing through job listings online, then I just remembered that it’s been such a long time since my last job interview, and then I kind of reminisced through all the job interviews that I attended but my first job interview was such a total mess. Every time I remember it, I just cringe and wave away the thought out of my head. And then I thought this is a great story to tell on my blog and embarrassing as well. 😅

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I went to a lot of job interviews before landing my first job. And to be honest I hate job interviews, just the thought of starting over again and doing all the things for me to land a job is just so tiring. And, also I am not a people pleaser, so impressing a person is not something I’m good at. I hate having people judge me if I have what it takes to do a job, okay that makes me sound like a narcissist and full of myself but you get my point right? Okay, I’ll just imagine that you get what I’m saying here 😅. Anyways, I had my first interview with this great company. I was so nervous, good thing I had the weekends to prepare for it because I got the invitation for an interview on a Friday. So, the over analyzing person that I am, I researched a lot about possible questions in an interview. I saved my answer on my phone, tried talking to myself in front of the mirror. I picked out my clothes and I even bought a new shoes just for it. So, before I go over what happened on the day of the interview there are some things you should know about me. I am a socially awkward person and I freak out over slight inconvenience, and some people think I am well put together because I don’t really show my emotions but deep inside I’m really freaking out.

So, fast forward to the interview, I was so early like an hour early for it, I hate being late but I overdid it 😂. I went to a convenience store to past time, and left to go to the interview 30 minutes early. I got there and I approached the not so nice receptionist, and point me to the couch with other applicants to wait. Minutes later she handed out forms for us to fill up and that was the start of the mayhem… I forgot to bring a pen. I know right? I had the weekends to prepare but I forgot to bring one of the most important thing. 🤦🏻‍♀️ So, I nicely asked the receptionist if she could lend me one and she said ‘NO’ in an intimidating way, and she followed it up with “There’s a convenience store at the ground floor, you can buy one”. I was so irritated because I was on the 24th floor, so it would really took me a long time to get back. I panicked, I was like “oh, okay. I’m sorry”. I was looking around the room, I wanted to asked the other applicants or even the security guard by the door but I was so aware of the receptionist looking at me. I was thinking of just going down to the convenience store but thankfully, I thought of asking someone on the 23rd floor which was one floor lower from where I was at. I took the stairs and there was a guard there and I borrowed his pen and at first he was like, “we’re not supposed to lend you because you should have brought your own” but he still lend it to me (thank you to that guard). I stride back in to the 24th floor, the receptionist was looking at me and I wanted to show her that I had my ways. 😏😂

Finally, the interview came which I was late for because they let us took a lunch break after we did the assessment. I came back late for it 😂 Imagine that? I was late?! When I was an hour early before. Anyways, I pretty much blew up the interview, I buckled a lot for most questions. My voice was shaking, I wasn’t comfortable and confident. I mean who answers the question “When are you willing to start?” with “next month”??? You basically answer this question: “as soon as possible”, and I answered “next month” I didn’t even know why. 🤣 Looking back at it, I still laugh at myself. It was probably the worst interview of all interviews. I wonder what was in the interviewer’s head at that time. I wouldn’t hire me if I was her.

But, I also did said to myself at that time to not expect that it will be flawless because it was my first time. That was my first taste of ‘adulting’. It was embarrassing but it was an experience I will never forget because I learned so much from it. I think I got a lot of better at it, I don’t overthink that much anymore during interviews and I’m more relaxed now. To any employers out there hire me! 😄

What was your first job interview like? Can you top my embarrassing job interview moment? Share it in the comments! 😄


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Poetry – Goodbye, Mom & Dad

Credits to Kate Campbell via medium.com

I have your name
forever written.
I will always have you,
and all the wisdom
that you imparted.
We’ll meet again
beyond the sky’s blue,
found that kingdom—
there we’ll be united.


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Share Your Story 01 – Talking About Your Mental Health

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This post took so long to be written and to be posted for the reason that I didn’t really know how I would approach this topic. I should have thought of it first before actually doing it. 😅 But I really wanted this blog to not just be about me anymore, I also want to relate to others. That is why I want a space in this blog to be about other people as well. I put up the Blog Directory so that if people ever visit this site, there’s a chance that they are also looking for new blogs to read or follow, and hopefully they will click on it and help them discover new blogs.

Anyways, this new segment that I’m starting which I will call “Share Your Story” (I can’t think of other creative title) is something that I was quite nervous about because I thought it would flop but I was surprised that people sent their stories. Like, I’ve said before I wanted to discuss more about things that we feel insecure and scared to talk about, and to be more specific— our mental health. Some of the stuff you guys sent me was quite heavy and really personal, that is why this took so long because I wanted to really think about the things that I will write. I want to start with something that I personally relate with. I’m going to leave all the stories anonymously, just for privacy reasons. And also, all views here are not professional and medical advice, these are all just for the purpose of discussions and opinions.

“Its difficult for me to talk about what I feel because I don’t want pity from others. I try to hide it and not talk about it with my family and friends but i write what I think about in my journal, I also play guitar to relax, it somehow ease my anxiety. Sometimes, I think my family will not understand as I live in a very strict and perfectionist manner of a household. But i’m okay for now, this is a great space by the way, thank you for doing this.”


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To whoever sent this, I personally relate to you. I have a habit of bottling up my emotions because I feel like I’ll become a burden to someone. And there’s a possibility that people will add up to the negativity that I’m already carrying by saying things like, “you’re being dramatic”, “it’s all in your head”, or “get over it” etc. That’s what scares me the most with talking about it with other people, the judgment from them will make it even worse. But talking about it really helps, especially when you talk about it with someone you trust or care about. It’s great that you have an outlet for your feelings and thoughts, it’s great to have an escape. But at some point you need to talk about it with other people who you trust and who you daily see face to face. I was scared to talk about it with my friends and family but when I did, I was surprised by their support. I was surprise how my sister felt the same way as I did when she was growing up, and I didn’t know that because we NEVER TALK ABOUT IT (sorry for shouting). And that is the point of all of these, we need to start talking about it. I know it’s different for everyone of us, and I know you have a strict family and I don’t know what it’s like in your home. But give it a try, maybe you’ll be surprised by how supportive they are or it may not be a family member, just start with someone that you truly know and trust who will not judge you for whatever you’re going to tell them. I hope you’re doing okay, and for awhile you can talk to me about it, if you’re still not comfortable or ready to open up with your friends or family. I always say that talking to strangers can also be helpful because there’s clearly no judgment. 😊

This space that I’m creating on this blog is great to get insights and to really start discussions about what mental health is really about, to get insights about how other people deal with it. How other people cope with problems and a bunch of other awkward but important topics that we are too scared to talk about. But at the end of the day, what matters more is what you are going to do. This is just an escape (I can’t believe I’m dragging this segment before it even starts) 🤣. Whatever I stated here or the comments here are clearly just opinions.

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Every story is worth sharing. ❤


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Always remember to be kind, not just on others but also on yourself. See you on my next post! ❤


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Regrets

It’s getting harder to get up every morning with all this weight of unmotivated mind and body. As if life just passes us by day by day feeling empty, and waiting for the moment where our lungs couldn’t catch an air to breathe, until death decides to take part. Leaving the world with nothing that goes by our name, a legacy not worth a dime and as if the life we have lived was a gift that we didn’t value. Until it’s too late, and we wishes that time turns back and we’ll try to redo everything but this time around we’ll do everything we can to fight ourselves and find motivation that we lack back then and not mess it up by self-sabotaging.


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Poetry – Desire

The never ending satisfaction, one desire to another.

Today you’ll fight and tomorrow again you’ll conquer.


Aren’t you getting tired? Wanting more when you have


everything there is a man could have ever dreamed of?


Here you are planning when you already have enough
,

taking all the world has to offer but never filling you up
.

You go for what you want rather than what you really love
.

Maybe change the way you think about what to acquire,


maybe next time you’ll get it right and fulfill your true desire.


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