My First Job Interview (Embarrassing)

I was updating my resume and browsing through job listings online, then I just remembered that it’s been such a long time since my last job interview, and then I kind of reminisced through all the job interviews that I attended but my first job interview was such a total mess. Every time I remember it, I just cringe and wave away the thought out of my head. And then I thought this is a great story to tell on my blog and embarrassing as well. 😅

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I went to a lot of job interviews before landing my first job. And to be honest I hate job interviews, just the thought of starting over again and doing all the things for me to land a job is just so tiring. And, also I am not a people pleaser, so impressing a person is not something I’m good at. I hate having people judge me if I have what it takes to do a job, okay that makes me sound like a narcissist and full of myself but you get my point right? Okay, I’ll just imagine that you get what I’m saying here 😅. Anyways, I had my first interview with this great company. I was so nervous, good thing I had the weekends to prepare for it because I got the invitation for an interview on a Friday. So, the over analyzing person that I am, I researched a lot about possible questions in an interview. I saved my answer on my phone, tried talking to myself in front of the mirror. I picked out my clothes and I even bought a new shoes just for it. So, before I go over what happened on the day of the interview there are some things you should know about me. I am a socially awkward person and I freak out over slight inconvenience, and some people think I am well put together because I don’t really show my emotions but deep inside I’m really freaking out.

So, fast forward to the interview, I was so early like an hour early for it, I hate being late but I overdid it 😂. I went to a convenience store to past time, and left to go to the interview 30 minutes early. I got there and I approached the not so nice receptionist, and point me to the couch with other applicants to wait. Minutes later she handed out forms for us to fill up and that was the start of the mayhem… I forgot to bring a pen. I know right? I had the weekends to prepare but I forgot to bring one of the most important thing. 🤦🏻‍♀️ So, I nicely asked the receptionist if she could lend me one and she said ‘NO’ in an intimidating way, and she followed it up with “There’s a convenience store at the ground floor, you can buy one”. I was so irritated because I was on the 24th floor, so it would really took me a long time to get back. I panicked, I was like “oh, okay. I’m sorry”. I was looking around the room, I wanted to asked the other applicants or even the security guard by the door but I was so aware of the receptionist looking at me. I was thinking of just going down to the convenience store but thankfully, I thought of asking someone on the 23rd floor which was one floor lower from where I was at. I took the stairs and there was a guard there and I borrowed his pen and at first he was like, “we’re not supposed to lend you because you should have brought your own” but he still lend it to me (thank you to that guard). I stride back in to the 24th floor, the receptionist was looking at me and I wanted to show her that I had my ways. 😏😂

Finally, the interview came which I was late for because they let us took a lunch break after we did the assessment. I came back late for it 😂 Imagine that? I was late?! When I was an hour early before. Anyways, I pretty much blew up the interview, I buckled a lot for most questions. My voice was shaking, I wasn’t comfortable and confident. I mean who answers the question “When are you willing to start?” with “next month”??? You basically answer this question: “as soon as possible”, and I answered “next month” I didn’t even know why. 🤣 Looking back at it, I still laugh at myself. It was probably the worst interview of all interviews. I wonder what was in the interviewer’s head at that time. I wouldn’t hire me if I was her.

But, I also did said to myself at that time to not expect that it will be flawless because it was my first time. That was my first taste of ‘adulting’. It was embarrassing but it was an experience I will never forget because I learned so much from it. I think I got a lot of better at it, I don’t overthink that much anymore during interviews and I’m more relaxed now. To any employers out there hire me! 😄

What was your first job interview like? Can you top my embarrassing job interview moment? Share it in the comments! 😄


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Life Lately 10

Here’s a life update from my very exciting life lately. And, guess what it’s currently raining again, like a weird coincidence every time I write Life Lately blog posts. Not much has changed since my last ‘Life Lately’ update.

Lately I’ve been thinking…

of ways to start writing about what I think. I have so many thoughts but my problem is either how to start writing it or how to finish writing it. If you could see my notes on my phone, there are a lot of unfinished writings. Sometimes, I have so many ideas that I choose to not write at all.

Lately I’ve been feeling…

alright, but I still get anxious about my future. Especially, now that I’m still unemployed, it’s really hard to get a job because of the pandemic. Lots of companies have laid off employees, and I guess there are a lot of people finding jobs which means, competitions doubled. There’s a part of me that has regrets on voluntarily quitting my job because I currently have no income, but there’s a bigger part of me where I’m relieved that I left that job. Right now, I’m trying so hard not to freak out about it, that’s why my current everyday mantra is “everything will be okay, I’ll be okay” and I tell this to myself every time I feel my chest tightening up because of my thoughts about my current career status.

Lately I’ve been wanting…

to get a job, to write more, to share more, to have a vacation. I want to go back to normal. It’s almost end of the year, and I feel like I wasted time because of this pandemic.

Lately I’ve been doing…

some reading but mostly playing video games. I’m currently reading a book which I would really like to finish by this week. I had a copy of that book for quite a while now, and I’ve been sleeping on it. I would also like to write a review about it, as it’s a really overhyped book but I’ve been playing so much video games lately, which is also the reason I’m so behind with reading your blogs (sorry ✌🏼).

Lately I’ve been hoping…

for the same thing as last time, that this pandemic will be over soon, and better world leaders. For the U.S. citizens, I know election is coming up in your country, please use your right to vote.

How’s your life lately? 😃

Always remember to be kind, not just on others but also on yourself. See you on my next post! ❤


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Just A Thought…

Why do many people rely on what they read online to tell them what their personality is?

This is just a random rambling while I’m listening to Keane’s Everybody’s Changing. I randomly started being skeptic on things again, like I always am. I always have this phase where I question everything, even the things that I’m passionate about. Like, this blog, I often question why people read this stuff written by a frustrated writer which is me. I’m a complicated girl, the thoughts in my brain is a gift because I never ran out of ideas to write about but most of the time I see it as a curse. For instance this ridiculous thought that turned into a blog post.

I suddenly started thinking about personality tests I don’t know why. But I kind of wanted to know why do many people want other people or some tests to tell them what their personality is? I mean, I get how it helps others to find what careers are compatible with them, I also get how it helps people to understand themselves more. I mean I took one back then, and I even posted it here. So, my hypocrite-self is questioning that test now 😂. It was 3 years ago, and I was struggling with finding myself at the time. Okay, enough about defending my hypocrisy 😆. Is it really even reliable? And here I am questioning Myers-Briggs Type Indicator. There are billions of people and we all have different personalities, and these tests are limited. I mean some questions on these tests are like which do you prefer cats or dogs (just for example and context) what if your answer is neither? What if all the questions are something like that? Right? How will that identify your personality?

Like, I said there are a lot of personalities, these tests just put people in boxes. Like, you’re this type of person, and your friend is this type etc. It just confuses people more. Anyways, this thought widened even more, now I started thinking about astrological signs. 😂

Who decided this by the way? Who decided that Virgos are perfectionists that worries too much or how Scorpios are passionate but also stubborn? etc. I used to think how cool it was to identify yourself like these, like you’re one with the cosmic universe. I even almost decided to have my astrological sign as a tattoo. But right now, I’m in my skeptic mode. I’m trollin astrological signs lol just kidding. But you get the point, right? Why do we rely so much on others’ words to tell us how we feel? Or who we are?

Because most of us don’t know how to put it into words and these stuff somehow help us understand what we were feeling in some ways.

See how I answered my own question? This is just a glimpse of what’s really going on in my head. It’s constant debate and fighting with myself 😂. There’s a reason why this blog is called Gigantic Thought Bubble.

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Cancel “Cancel Culture” #JustSaying

I want to say some things about this trend called “Cancel Culture”. I don’t know why people nowadays became so entitled to their opinions that they think it’s okay to “cancel” someone just because they dislike or got “offended” by a simple statement of a celebrity or personality that they read in too much.

I’m referring to Tyler Joseph’s tweet that some people got offended. He made a joke about using his platform to talk about important things.

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I get how “woke” people are now, especially with everything that has been going on with the world. It’s a crazy world right now, and it’s nice to see how people are socially aware about politics and world issues but forcing someone to speak about these issues is a bit too much, people has ways and process to choose what they believe in. Most people are still trying to figure it out, some people are neutral about stuff. And with Tyler Joseph, his “fans” were forcing him to use his platform to spread a message, he made a joke that I actually find corny lol. But people read in too much to it. Someone said that he mocked his fans with that tweet, when in fact Tyler has a dark and weird sense of humor at times. Check his tweets, it’s full of them. He even makes fun of his fans. Anyways, this guy has been using his platform ever since, with his music he saved thousands of lives (including me). And people don’t really need to post it online as a way to support a cause. And you can’t force someone to speak up, they will if they want to.

It’s funny how “fans” treat celebrities and personalities, like they are owed, and these celebrities should do whatever their fans ask them to do. If you don’t like what people does or say on social media, then stop following them instead of spreading it more, which adds more toxicity to this world. This cancel culture needs to stop, I feel sorry for celebrities sometimes they’re not allowed to make mistakes, that’s why a lot of them don’t really go on social media nowadays. And by the way, what effect does this really do? What does cancelling someone does for you? There’s so many bad things happening in this world, and cancelling someone does not solve it. So, I’m cancelling cancel culture. #JustSaying


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PERFECT TIME TO INTROSPECT

So, it’s been about 1 week or more I guess since being on lockdown. What have you been up to? Bored? Me too.

Well, we still need to stay at home guys because it’s not yet over. Anyway, I know we are all bored but I guess this is the perfect time to reflect and notice the things that is much more important. We were all used to the fast paced world that we were living, it was a cycle and a routine but now things have changed for a bit and we were all forced to stay at home for the sake of our health. Maybe we can use this time to do the things we put on hold because we got busy with the every day living. Like, finishing that book or learning to play an instrument, fixing your room, or even finishing that series you’ve been wanting to binge.

During this horrible time I hope we can all introspect to spark flame to the passion that we killed to keep up with the society. This is the perfect time to really get to know yourself, to see what is really important in this life. I hope everyone uses this time to spend more time with their loved ones. Also, this is not the time to procrastinate we don’t have any excuses now.

Stay safe everyone.

-Joana x

P.S. This is a message for myself lol. I’ve been too lazy to write, read, or even do anything right now.