How could you let your inner chaos spill and ruin what we have created here. From fragments of ourselves cut to pieces, our nail draws and our blood smears the intimacy we once had— forever lost? We still cling to something that isn’t there hoping to find a reason and another cause and go back from the beginning and be bared, be stripped back from all the lies and pain that was brought by mistrusts and blames. Foundation built for years was demolished. Now, debris are falling on our dented shield. How could we both let it get this far? Is there anyway to salvage this love of ours?
I want to be honest. I sort of forgot that I still have a blog lol. It’s been a while since I wrote something or even thought of writing.
Let’s see… Here’s what happened since I last posted something here:
I turned 25 last August 24th. I think I can legitimately say that I’m going through a quarter life crisis lol. I’m in this phase of where I’m alright but at the same time I feel like I need to do something with my life or else I’ll get left behind. To have enough wealth is the goal right now. Money is everything forget whatever I said in here years ago lol. I know in my country living with your family in your 20’s is pretty much normal but I feel like I am not growing by being in the same environment since I was born. I feel like I am missing out on so many things by staying in my comfort zone. But living alone cost a lot, I feel like I can do it but the thought of saving a lot more by staying with my family is something that I’m conflicted with. I guess this is really the age where you’re really thinking of what you are going to do with your life. Well, that’s that with my ramblings about being 25.
I also entered the world of NFT games which is taking up a lot of my time and sleep as well. The thought of gaining wealth hit me and I thought of investing in a fun way and just have a little extra income. I thought of entering Axie Infinity since it’s the NFT game that is already established so the risk is somehow lower than other Play To Earn games out there. But a friend recommended a game called Plant Vs Undeadwhich is a project that just started 2 months ago. I researched a lot about it and I see a really huge potential for this game. And it’s cheaper than Axie. I mean I invested just around $70 and I got my return of investment in just a week with a profit of around $300 at that time. This is the first NFT game that I played, and honestly it’s quite fun to play, sometimes I forget that I invested money in it. I’m also open to other NFT games, comment down below if you have recommendations.
I just renewed this blog yesterday. One of the main reason why I’m so lazy to write lol. My domain and plan expired a month ago and I just had the will to renew it yesterday. Yes, I pay for this blog. A lot of people get surprise by that information, when you love what you’re doing it’s okay to spend a little. Now that this blog is renewed I’m having trouble coming up with ideas to write about. I guess for a few days I’ll be publishing some drafts I have left until I get fresh new ideas.
That’s all I got for now. I hope to see you again on my next post.
How are you all? Hope you’re doing good. I hope you haven’t forgot about me 🥺.
One of the things I get excited about going home from work is knowing I get to chill back and play my favorite game which is The Sims. I’ve been a fan of the game for a long time now. The Sims is probably the greatest simulation game that there is right now. I get to live a different life playing this game lol. I spent hours building houses and playing different storylines. Who says it’s a boring game when I’m a serial dater who’s a full time spy? (yep, I created my female version of James Bond).
I got into playing video games when I was very young since my brothers and sister would play all the time on their Playstation and I would wait for them to finish playing so I could play after them. I used to spent countless hours playing even when we’re told to stop and rest our eyes we would still play. Today, I’m appreciative that I still get to play and now I have my own device to play with so I don’t need to wait for anyone to finish playing lol.
They say video games is a great stress reliever well it really is. It is not just to past time anymore, it is an effective way to keep your mind off of things, an effective escape to our stressful life.
Do you play video games too? What’s your favorite game?
How about you? What are your favorite little things thatmakes you happy?
Lately, it’s been raining a lot which is my favorite type of weather. The cloudiness and gloominess of the sky gives me that calming feeling. One of the little things that’s been uplifting my mood lately is the rain. I know this is a silly little thing to be happy about but I want to take a moment and recognize the feeling I feel when it rains lol.
Every time that it rains I instantly feel at peace, if it isn’t even that weird I would gladly walk in the rain just for the hell of it, just go outside and just wander around in the rain lol. I had this fond memory of really enjoying this type of weather when I was in high school, we had this field trip in an amusement park but it was raining nonstop and other people had their umbrellas and was bummed out, they were not enjoying their day but me and my friends were having a blast even though our clothes were soaking. We didn’t mind the rain and we just enjoyed all the rides, that was a great day for us.
I don’t know what it is about the rain maybe it’s the smell and the sound of the raindrops that adds to that cozy feeling and to pair it with hot drinks, music, and a loved one? What more can you ask for right? Just the idea of lying in bed all day and feeling the cold breeze is so soothing. So, I want to appreciate the rain these past few days for giving me this kind of feeling.
This kind of silly thing is one of the things that we don’t really pay attention to, it’s not much but it gives us that comfort and peace even just for a little while.
How about you? What are your favorite silly little things that makes you happy?
Hey, since it’s quarantine season again here in the Philippines I decided that I want to do something positive on this blog for a few days. I want to focus on the things I love rather than think about what’s wrong in the world. I rarely do this because I was so used to writing about pain and misery since I find it more interesting to write about. So, for the next few days I will try to list down the things that’s been making me happy lately in my life that I usually take for granted.
I think I’m speaking for everyone when I say that we unconsciously focus more on the things that stresses us out and we take for granted the things that give us that relief. Often times, we get swallowed by the everyday living and forget about the little things in life that calms us down. So, join me for the next few days and recognized the little things in our life that gives us joy, the “temporary” happiness that we hardly acknowledge and what we think is too shallow. Let’s appreciate these little things as it helps us get through life or even just for a day or even just for a moment.
P.S. I had this draft for months now and I thought it’s perfect to work on this draft during this lockdown again which is unfortunately our third one for this pandemic. Also, shoutout to Shahrin from SmallMomentsofWonder she posted this blog about Small Pleasures Of Life back in February and it inspired this post.