THINKING TOO MUCH

You care so much

what others think

that you let yourself

drown and sink

to words that adds

to the weight

that you already

have and hate.

Now, the thing is

you overthink this

your mind makes a list

of things you should dismiss

your mind is not in peace

and it’s like a disease,

when will it ever cease?

LATE NIGHT QUESTIONS | WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF YOU KNEW YOU COULDN’T FAIL? 

Some of us are held back on doing things that we want to do because of our fear of failure but if for a day you knew that you couldn’t fail, what would you do?

Another question, another thing to ponder about. 

Maybe answering thing question may lead to knowing your passion. 

Do not be afraid to go after what you want. 😊

This is the first question in this series that I have an answer for… (but I’m going to keep it to myself). 😉

LATE NIGHT QUESTIONS | HOW MANY PEOPLE ARE HAPPY WITH THEIR CURRENT JOBS? 

I’m a huge fan of F.R.I.E.N.D.S and there are moments where out of nowhere a certain scene or phrase from the show suddenly pops into my head like recently when we were in a hotel room I suddenly remember the time Ross and Chandler stayed at a hotel and took every possible hotel amenities they could get lol well it also happens in random shows/movies/songs/memories like I’ll just remember a random memory from the past for no reason and lately a specific scene from F.R.I.E.N.D.S got stuck in my head, it was the one where Chandler quitted his job that he hated and he sort of pointed out that everybody hates their jobs then everybody disagreed and said that they love their jobs. Got me thinking what percentage of people actually love what they’re doing and actually enjoy their jobs? 

It is a norm in this society to get a job to be able to provide the needs and wants for one’s self or in short we work for money and most people follow the path where it can give them more money but do they love what they do? I contemplate a lot about this and about getting a job because I’m entering the “real world” and I don’t want to be stuck in doing something that I don’t like, I know money is important but I don’t want to be one of those people who surrender their whole life just by earning money, I know you have to pay bills and other stuff and it may be irrational or unreasonable to say that I don’t care how much I make as long as I’m doing what I love and what I’m passionate about. I’m a dreamer I know, I should slap myself and just wake up but I don’t want to sacrifice my entire life and happiness to doing something meaningless. 

Well, that’s what’s bugging me for tonight. Good night. 

LATE NIGHT QUESTIONS: EVERYTHING’S GOING TO CHANGE ISN’T IT? 

Another night where I’m thinking about everything and it’s been a while since I wrote about what I think, right now I’m thinking about what comes after, what’s going to happen next— this is the time where I’m supposed to be freaking out, I wasn’t until now (thanks brain). 

 I’m going to graduate in a month that means everything’s going to change right? I have to adjust to a whole lot of changes, it’s the next chapter of my life and this is the part where it gets real, I have to get a job which I’m very anxious about and also this is where I’m either going to find myself or feel completely lost. This is the time where I need to stop being lazy and stop fooling around. How I wish I could freeze time, I’m thinking about how I won’t see my friends often like I used to and the possibility that we won’t even be friends anymore that’s what makes me sad the most (friends come and go). I may say to myself that I’m ready but honestly I think I’m not.
 
Quite terrifying. 

 
Yes, everything is definitely going to change. 

LATE NIGHT QUESTIONS: WHAT IS THE POINT OF LIFE?

Here I am again with my late night thoughts. I was thinking of starting to read a book but instead I decided to just write. Venting out at around 2am, mostly contemplating and asking myself questions about logical explanation on things like what’s the point of all of these? What’s the point of life? I just started to think about the point of life when it’s all going to end at some time. Because everything that we have right now won’t even matter if we can’t even take it with us when we die. 
 
They say it’s the legacy that we will leave behind, the memory and how you made an impact in the world but does it really matter? Is it that we live to be too conscious on how we will be remembered after we’re gone? Is that the point of life? Is that the point that we’re doing all of the things that we’re doing right now? 
 
Then there’s the afterlife that I don’t really know if I should believe in it. Life is just so fascinating and intriguing. Well it’s currently around 2am right now and I’m asking myself those questions lol. It’s amazing how our brain works at this time of the hour and how we contemplate on things just to find answers or in some cases have more questions. 

 


What is the point of life for you? Share it in the comments maybe. 😉