HOT & COLD

An answer to find
with an indecisive mind,
it does not lead to a conclusion
even with just a few options.

What to do and what to choose?
It just makes me so anxious.
I’ll pick one and the other
but later on I want the latter.

I’m hot and then I’m cold.
I want to call but then I’ll fold.
I meant to say ‘no’ but I said ‘yes’,
I can’t seem to decide what’s best.


I wrote this for all the indecisive people out there, I know I am not alone. Isn’t it frustrating to make a decision when you don’t want to? Are you like me who wishes there is someone who would do the difficult decision of choosing what photo to post on Instagram? Lol kidding aside. I am one of those people who has a hard time coming up with decisions and when I do, I initially regret it or wished I went with the other option. I don’t know why but every time I am put in a situation where I have to choose or decide, I am convinced that I will make the wrong choice— I am afraid to make a wrong choice. Yes, I know making wrong decisions and making mistakes are all part of life but it’s kind of frustrating to think that I could’ve made the right one if I just chose the other option. It’s like I had the slightest control of the future but I messed it up.

This is probably one of the sources of my anxiety. I’m learning to let go of the ‘what ifs’. I want to be better at going with the flow, owning up mistakes, and accepting consequences of my decisions. And to be able to do that I need to just decide and choose, go for my gut and hope for the best.

Photo Credits to Sofia Oliveira

INDECISIVE MIND

I hate having too many options, I prefer to be in a situation choosing between life or death.

I hate shopping especially when it’s an unplanned one. Before I go to the mall I list down the things that I will be getting and specifically the brand and the style of it, I look in the internet first and trust me even browsing in the internet of the things that I would buy took me hours to decide what to get, what more if I initially go to the mall.

Choosing what to wear is another thing I hate and I always end up wearing just a plain shirt and jeans.

Don’t even get me started on this blogging, choosing the theme was a pain. It took me a day or two to really decide what the theme and look of the blog will be. That’s why I changed the blog’s title and the theme today again actually I changed it yesterday (see it took me a day lol). And I also had trouble with my previous account so I transferred this blog to this account. And thanked God there’s this import thing on wordpress so I got to follow all of the blogs that I have been following in my previous account.

Anyways…

Being indecisive takes up a lot of my time, thinking what to choose and when I finally decided I think again if I made the right decision and so there’s a big tendency that I regret every decisions that I made. Too much choices give me anxiety. I just really hate making decisions I wish everything was just laid out in front of me, everything was planned so I don’t have to make decisions.