Lately I’ve been thinking…

It’s a rainy day today and I’ve been thinking how relaxing the rain is after so many days in the torturing heat of the summer. I guess this is the start of the rainy season here in the Philippines (yey!) My mind is so calm lately but I’ve also been thinking about getting back to work, we can go back to work on Monday but the problem is there are no public transportation available for the commuters and my family doesn’t want to drive me to work. I should really learn how to drive now but good thing the company I’m working at said that it’s okay if we were still not be able to go to work because of the transportation problem.

Lately I’ve been feeling…

Calm. Being in this quarantine is a piece cake for us introverts. I’ve been wanting to have this kind of break since I started working and it’s sad that it had to be in this kind of way. I feel very relaxed, well I guess I can say too relaxed because I have missed sleeping in and not worrying about how early I have to get up the next day but when you got used to that kind of living you kind of miss it by now.

Lately I’ve been wanting…

To see my friends especially my boyfriend, we hadn’t seen each other since the start of the quarantine which is almost 2 months now. I miss them so much, I miss going out, I miss eating out and I can’t believe I’m saying this but I actually miss going to work lol. I have wanted this kind of break but I guess it’s too much now.

Lately I’ve been doing…

I’ve been playing a lot of video games and mobile games this entire quarantine. I’ve been replaying the story missions of GTA IV & V, I’ve been building houses on Sims 4 and I’ve also been playing Call Of Duty. How productive am I? lol This is also one of the reason that I barely write anymore (sorry). Playing games has been such an effective way to past time or waste time lol either way it somehow lessened the boredom I have been feeling since this quarantine started.

Lately I’ve been hoping…

That this pandemic will be over soon and we could all go back to our normal lives. This pandemic has its upside as well though, we get to spend some time with our family without any excuse or distraction that I hope we will all remember after this. I hope we’ll now value the time we have to know what is truly important.

How’s your life lately? 🙂


Lately I’ve been thinking…

A lot about my future and it’s a good sign because it means I intend to live a life and I intend to have a good one. Before I have this thinking what’s meant to happen will happen but now that I’ve landed my first job yes you read that write after deliberately “whining” here from time to time about how hard it was to get a job, I finally have a job now. It changed my mindset on things and in life. I’m officially an adult now and officially a corporate slave lol. It’s not going to be any easier and it feels like life is just starting for me. 

Lately I’ve been feeling…

Excited and nervous at the same time, tomorrow is my first day at work. I’m excited because it’s a whole new “game” for me and nervous because I don’t really know what to expect but right now the excitement weighs more than the nervousness.

Lately I’ve been wanting…

To start reading books again, I still haven’t finish my list yet that I had set 3 months ago and the last book that I had read was Sad Girls by Lang Leav that I wanted to write a reaction/review but sadly I did not had the chance to do. 

Lately I’ve been doing…

For the past weeks I’ve been busy going to job interviews and last week I finally got a job offer so I needed to submit the requirements which took up a lot of my time, adult life is really hard I must say but it pays off right? I’m an accounting staff and it was really hard for me to get a job because honestly I was picky especially with the position that I wanted and I know as a fresh graduate you’re not really in a position to be picky but I really wanted my first job to be aligned with what I studied (finance) and what I want for my career in the corporate world, this is a stepping stone for that. 

Besides all the job related stuff, I’ve also been busy watching series in between. I finished binge watching Game of Thrones and Designated Survivor. 😁 Great shows! 

Lately I’ve been hoping…

For a great career and hoping that my first day tomorrow will work out well (wish me luck). I’m just really glad that I’m not unemployed anymore, it’s quite depressing when everyone around you is busy doing something and you’re just sitting around, wasting other people’s money and having fun. 

I wish I could elaborate more on these things but I really don’t like doing lengthy posts. Anyway, have a great day everyone! 

How’s your life lately? 


Lately, I’ve been thinking…

If I should write an individual post about my trip in Hong Kong and China or just share it in this “Life Lately” post. So, if I post this then the latter it is.

Lately, I’ve been feeling… 

Really tired 😴 That trip was really draining. The reason it was very tiring was because we went on a group tour so we had a very strict time schedule that we needed to follow. We needed to wake up at 6 am if we didn’t want to be late. And also it was very hot that it’s quite irritating, it added to that tiring feeling. But we also had fun especially on our free day which was our first day, we’re supposed to go to the Ocean Park but we had a delayed flight and also we just went there on our own. We took the train which me and my family felt like we had mastered the commuting life in Hong Kong lol. Though we got a bit lost which was really funny but we found our way around after asking for directions. When we got to the Ocean Park, we were so late and the ticket we bought was not an individual ticket, it was a group tour so we needed to be there on time. In the end we didn’t get to tour the Ocean Park which was really a waste of time, energy and money. We decided to go to Mong Kok instead.

We got lost in Hong Kong so many times which was probably the reason why we got so tired to the point that we can barely walk lol. 

Lately, I’ve been wanting…

To get a massage. To sleep. We just got back a few hours ago and I’ve already slept but I feel like I need to sleep more to catch up on all the sleeps I lost over that trip lol. 

Lately, I’ve been doing…

Too much walking and standing that’s why my legs feel like it’s going to fall off from my body. The clear overview of our trip in Hong Kong and China was tiring over fun. 

Lately, I’ve been hoping…

To finally get a freaking job!!! I put my job-hunt on hold because of this trip and now I’m back home and back to my normal life. I need to start that hunt again. 

How’s your life lately? 


It’s quite interesting that in just a short span of time a lot of things can change. How in just a short amount of time you can completely change to a different kind of person, that everything you once believed in you just don’t believe in them anymore. Everything you once loved doing you just get tired of doing it. How in that short time you turned from a slight mess to a completely messed up broken person.

A monthly check on life.

Lately, I’ve been thinking…

Too much about everything and then nothing. I want to change this to “Lately, I want to think about…” and that is school that’s it I just want to focus on that as much as possible but I can’t. Lately it’s been too much thinking for me, I just need to shut my brain off. (But how?) 

Lately, I’ve been feeling…

Old and tired lol. Old because I just turned 20 last Wednesday. I feel really sad about it because I’m just not ready for adulthood yet and thinking that my age just dropped that suffix “-teen” makes me anxious. Tired because of life itself too much stuff going on. I badly need a break. 

Lately, I’ve been wanting…

To sleep and rest and leave and read and write and not exist for awhile or forever lol. But seriously I just want to get away and have some time alone it’s actually not a want it’s a need. I need to breathe. 

Lately, I’ve been doing…

I just started to read a book again. I’m currently reading Eleanor & Park it occupies my mind at night and I think I can finish it by today or tomorrow (hopefully).

Lately, I’ve been hoping…

For something, just something, anything.

How’s your life lately? 


Everyday’s a battle, 

a fight I have to win.

And everyday’s a struggle,

to face my enemy

in a defenseless fight. 

Clenching my fist then

gripping the edge of

the bathroom sink,

head bowed afraid to

look up and face my opponent. 

Familiar eyes

looking back at me,

and a face so strong

full of doubts, worries

and insecurities.

Her words punching

blow by blow

taking all the pain.

But my restless 

mind and body

still fighting,

still breathing,

still alive.

Blood splatter,

glass fragments,

catching my breath,

asking if tomorrow

will there be another

 fight left in me?