We all crave for that “better” life whatever that is, and we all have different views of what that is. We all have different things that we want in life. Some want to have that great big house and nice cars, some want to travel the world, some want to find their passion but most importantly all of us want to find happiness. But what is happiness to you?
I was never a materialistic type of person, all I want in life is to live with a peaceful mind and having enough to support myself and my hobbies which is to just write and play video games lol but I never wanted to have a grand life. I don’t want a mansion or nice cars, I’m happy to live in a tiny cozy home. I never crave for too much money, I even daydream of just living in a trailer home and be on the road whenever I want. This is what I picture happiness is, the calmness in life— the contentment.
Between life and death, there we are with our borrowed time that we use to fill up the days of our existence in this world. And if everything we do is just a time-filler does it matter what we do with the time that we have, that is only going to be taken away in the end? Or it’s only borrowed so we should make the most out of it instead?
I wrote a bunch of poetry back in 2017, it was all over the place. So, I finally retrieved it from my old broken laptop and some were from my old journal pages that I may have forgotten about.
It went all blank, the mind that was once filled with too much noise. It was terrifying that it all stopped— the over-drowning thoughts, it was always there but now it’s all gone. It was quiet— too quiet that it makes it more numbing, “why am I not thinking, even feeling things anymore?” I ask myself. Now, I’m walking through this life with blank eyes, even more afraid that I’m not afraid of anything anymore.
Remove all the clocks and remove the idea of time would you ever sleep?
Late night thoughts are rushing in that means questions in my mind are forming and for tonight this is my “ridiculous” question.
If ever we never had the idea of time, if we never had the notion of when we see the stars and moon in the sky it’s time to sleep and a specific time like 3am is really late, would you sleep or would you stay up a little more?