I can’t remember your name.
Let’s go back to the start
we’ll do it all over again.
We’ll mend each others heart
like we always did before
but it’s different now,
love is not here anymore.
Even if we took our vow
we’ll try to make it through,
to always be with each other,
calm ourselves and be sober.
I guess we’ll call a truce
and live again to fight another.
It’s hard to say good bye,
the story’s not yet over.
Let there be more pages
to this book of us together.
It doesn’t even matter
what comes after this
just as long I can still
taste the kiss from your lips.
But you ended us
killed the romance
you gave it all up
like there’s no chance
for fixing us.
You’ve thrown it away,
I was not enough.
when I finally wanted to stay,
you just called it off.
You pulled the plug
when I was so in love
It’s like you were my drug
and I was flying high
like a dove.
It’s hard to say good bye
when all I can think about
is you and I.
Everywhere I go,
there you are.
In my mind,
there you stay
but I wish you
were here in front me,
I wish I can say
that I’m okay
without you
but it’s not the truth
because I still can’t
look you in the eye—
I can not lie,
I’m not ready to say
goodbye.
Too much space, so little words,
no doubt it will crumble and fall,
neglected longings, felt so cold.
Again, I hide behind these walls.
Waiting for you to break it once more,
I started thinking that I look like a fool
for me to let you in and open the door.
Now, you had me breaking my own rule
The cycle repeats and we’re in love again,
when will I realize that this causes pain
because it goes on and on like a game.
It’ll never change, it will always be the same.
It went all blank, the mind that was once filled with too much noise. It was terrifying that it all stopped— the over-drowning thoughts, it was always there but now it’s all gone. It was quiet— too quiet that it makes it more numbing, “why am I not thinking, even feeling things anymore?” I ask myself. Now, I’m walking through this life with blank eyes, even more afraid that I’m not afraid of anything anymore.
