I Wouldn’t Know Any Better Than You by Gentle Bones
I’m very picky when it comes to new music, maybe because I’m getting older and I’m still stuck at the 90’s and early 2000’s music. But I do appreciate these chill vibe kind of music nowadays, it’s kind of perfect for this sweater weather that we currently have. Enjoy this playlist!
I want to be selfish every once in a while but I look at my hand, that gold metal band around my finger reminded me that this isn’t just about me anymore. I gave up a piece of me when I said ‘I do’, and that piece of me I gave it to you, the other part of me wanted to be freed and just wanted to go back to the way it was before. But I took a vow to be with you in anyhow, to always be together even in times of doubt and remind each other why we’re here now. We won’t forget because I chose you and we’re here from every sunrise until every sunset.
Most of us want to be different but what is being different? How do you define it? When everybody wants to be different then that means all of us are the same right? We all want the same thing, how does that make us any different?
Being different equally means being special, to be set apart from the rest, to be unique. We are all unique in our own way but most of us crave for being “different”. I guess we all have our own meaning to that word but most of us use that word to break out from our normal world. Like, being in line with a family of doctors but you wanted to break out from that and you wanted to become a writer instead. Or how your father wanted you to follow on his footsteps as a professional basketball player but you wanted to be a musician etc. Most of us grew up with a built path already, and we just have to walk on it. And some of us want to build our own. Which made me think that being different is not actually being different from the rest but becoming like the rest who are happy and successful, to follow their own passion and path.
“I want to be different” is not actually craving to be set apart, it is craving to be a part of something special and worthwhile. Being different is not going against the flow but being in the flow in the right river.
It’s a maze up there and I often get lost, too anxious to care. So, I built up walls to block the paths that lead to doors, it hides my past and many more.
I wish there was a map to help me get out of my own mind But I realized I built these paths to get lost and for no one to find… me. I chose to be a settler and now I regret the maze that I made— I now live in to suffer.