So, I’m back? Am I really though? I’m not sure yet but I’m trying to blog again (yay?) I’m announcing that I am the biggest hypocrite in the blogging world lol. I write about mental health and how to acknowledge it, and how we should take care of ourselves but I’m not walking the talk but hear me out. For the past week I went on a blogging break mainly because of being unmotivated and my mental state was playing with me again, and I needed to get away from what’s keeping me busy this quarantine. I know that sounded weird, I mean if it keeps your mind off of things then why stop doing it right? I’ll tell you more about it in another post.
Anyways, I think I already told my story here about how I handled my anxiety and depression, if you haven’t read it click here. I do believe that I got so much better these past 2 years compare to the year 2015-2017-ish but there are still those occurring days where I go into session with my depression, it isn’t that bad anymore like it was before but still it’s heavy to carry. There are days where I just lie in bed all day, and there’s that having no appetite to eating everything that there is in the fridge. It’s difficult to get over it, there aren’t any concrete solutions or tips where we can keep on avoiding this feeling. So, this blog post is not a self-help tips, sorry for the title (peace sign). But literally these are the things that I usually do during my depression session:
Trigger warning: If you need help with your mental health please talk to someone or call for help.
I Isolated Myself
This is why quarantine and isolation wasn’t really a big deal for me lol kidding aside. Even on my “normal” days, I don’t socialize that much, it drains me. During my “session” I completely loathed interacting with people, it kind of irritated me and I literally didn’t have the energy even just to fake it.
Ate Too Much or None At All
There is no in between. There are moments that even though I am full, I’ll still eat to try and fill up the void inside of me (too dramatic). And there are moments that I won’t eat anything at all for the whole day.
Played Too Much Video Games
Playing video games is the most effective way to past time, this is why I play video games besides that it’s fun. It takes my mind off things and I just want the time to past by and end the day. I’m currently playing The Sims again, trying to live a virtual life the right way lol.
Binge Watching TV Series
When I’m done playing video games, I binge watch TV Series I watch no less than 5 episodes per day or I even finish an entire season in 1 day. I’m currently watching Grey’s Anatomy and I’m on season 6 now and I just started a few weeks ago which tells something– I have no life.
Lie In Bed All Day
My most favorite routine when I’m in my depression session, lying in bed with my earphones on, staring at ceiling, and contemplating on life. Feeling like crap and feeling like falling in an abyss.
Reminder that I’m in no way mocking anyone’s mental situation, this is personal experience and the use of the term “depression session” is mainly for personal description.
I use sarcasm and mockery to get over whatever I’m going through, so I am in no way disrespecting anyone’s struggle with mental health. And, I’m also not an expert to give advice, all stated here are personal views.
These are some of the things that I usually do when I’m feeling worthless and overthinking things, and I find it normal for me and maybe it’s not in a medical view point but it’s something that I got used to do and I’m kind of okay with it. The fact that I have been doing these things to get over that awful part of me is like a maintenance. Do I wish to not experience this anxiety and depression? Of course, but it’s happening and I have to accept that and deal with it. Anxiety and depression are not like a flu that when you drink fluids or meds it will be gone, it’s going to be a part of you even if you already overcome it once or twice, it’s a reoccurring experience and it’s still going to be there and it’s just the matter of how you handle it. This is how I handle it and it works for me, whatever gets you through the day right?
Do you also experience a session with your depression every now and then?
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