An answer to find
with an indecisive mind,
it does not lead to a conclusion
even with just a few options.

What to do and what to choose?
It just makes me so anxious.
I’ll pick one and the other
but later on I want the latter.

I’m hot and then I’m cold.
I want to call but then I’ll fold.
I meant to say ‘no’ but I said ‘yes’,
I can’t seem to decide what’s best.

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I wrote this for all the indecisive people out there, I know I am not alone. Isn’t it frustrating to make a decision when you don’t want to? Are you like me who wishes there is someone who would do the difficult decision of choosing what photo to post on Instagram? Lol kidding aside. I am one of those people who has a hard time coming up with decisions and when I do, I initially regret it or wished I went with the other option. I don’t know why but every time I am put in a situation where I have to choose or decide, I am convinced that I will make the wrong choice— I am afraid to make a wrong choice. Yes, I know making wrong decisions and making mistakes are all part of life but it’s kind of frustrating to think that I could’ve made the right one if I just chose the other option. It’s like I had the slightest control of the future but I messed it up.

This is probably one of the sources of my anxiety. I’m learning to let go of the ‘what ifs’. I want to be better at going with the flow, owning up mistakes, and accepting consequences of my decisions. And to be able to do that I need to just decide and choose, go for my gut and hope for the best.

Photo Credits to Sofia Oliveira