I want to feel that feeling
but I’m scared to let you in.
I built these walls so high
so I could protect myself
from you and everybody else.
I don’t want to get attached
so I pushed you away
before you get too close.
Yes I want to feel that feeling
but I’m scared that we’ll
end up just like my parents.
I can’t imagine you walking away
from me from a fight
and saying that it’s done.
I don’t want to see
you walking out that door
and leaving me all alone.
I want to feel that feeling
but how can I?
When my heart has
been broken ever since.
I want you to put it back
together but there’s
that thought that you
might step on the pieces more
and I’m afraid that
I’m never gonna be able
to put it back together.
But I want to feel that feeling
that will fill the
emptiness within me.
Being in love and
being careless,
taking the risks
and just going with the flow.
Expecting a fairytale ending
and just be happy for a
moment.
I want to feel that feeling
but I let myself not to
for I am a coward
to face its ups and downs.
I just want to feel… That… Feeling.